So I need to start feeling good about living again and I think the best way to do that is to get rid of the unneeded drama and negative vibes.
So from here on in I will not talk to Nicole ever again b.c she is a wicked bitch
I will not let my mother treat me like shit b.c I know I am better than whatever she wants to think I am
I will stop thinking negatively about myself b/c I have a lot of good things going for me and the me on a physical level well I need to lose weight period that whole feeling shitty about how I look wont go away so I am committed to doing something about it. I mean I did see my friend today that I hadn't seen since 2005 when she graduated college and she was like "Wow you look so good you lost a lot of weight." That made me feel good So I know I can do it but I needed that commitment and now its back.
I don't know what else is 'drama' filing in my life but it has to go. I think the above list covers it pretty thoroughly though.
Saturday, January 31, 2009
Friday, January 30, 2009
I'm going to freak out
Yeah I just cant deal with this anymore.
Its not even about Satan any more its about everything.
I cant take it anymore, I feel like I've even been a drag on Karin and Mike who let me come up here and chill for a while.
It feels like my being here is stressing Karin out more b.c on top of my bullshit that shouldnt really effect me she has to deal with Satan as well.
This feeling of not being able to cope with reality is a total drag its worse than finding a person trying to kill themselves in my apartment.
The will to move on just doesn't exist for me anymore, its more of a follow through with the actions of life that get you by and let everything else just disappear into an abyss.
On top of these great feelings I'm having Nicole just informed me that I am the most useless human being that she has ever met. Apparently I am a fat useless piece of shit. If I was not good in bed there would be no use for me at all.
I pretty much tend to agree with her at the moment, I'm pretty useless. No job, fat, unwanted, and apparently lack any personality.
Sarah keeps coming over here tryingt o talk to me about movies and tv and shit with the smoke in my face I want to strangle her but shes in a good mood this moment so I wont do that and have to hear her crying and wanting to die ... i'll continue with this later... or not
Its not even about Satan any more its about everything.
I cant take it anymore, I feel like I've even been a drag on Karin and Mike who let me come up here and chill for a while.
It feels like my being here is stressing Karin out more b.c on top of my bullshit that shouldnt really effect me she has to deal with Satan as well.
This feeling of not being able to cope with reality is a total drag its worse than finding a person trying to kill themselves in my apartment.
The will to move on just doesn't exist for me anymore, its more of a follow through with the actions of life that get you by and let everything else just disappear into an abyss.
On top of these great feelings I'm having Nicole just informed me that I am the most useless human being that she has ever met. Apparently I am a fat useless piece of shit. If I was not good in bed there would be no use for me at all.
I pretty much tend to agree with her at the moment, I'm pretty useless. No job, fat, unwanted, and apparently lack any personality.
Sarah keeps coming over here tryingt o talk to me about movies and tv and shit with the smoke in my face I want to strangle her but shes in a good mood this moment so I wont do that and have to hear her crying and wanting to die ... i'll continue with this later... or not
oooo this girl
So no I'm not the most annoying weirdo in the world. I have been severely outdone by Satan (Sarah) that girl is insane! Don't forget annoying and slightly pathetic as well.
This girl thinks shes the only one in the god dam world who has been kicked by life or something... news flash sweetheart ...EVERYONE has.
Point in case ... That's why I am here at Karin's place, to get away from shit. So now instead of getting over shit I'm sitting here babysitting a 21 yr old who whines worse that a 2 year old. And did I mention the temper tantrums and fits??? Yeah she has those too.
On the plus side... well there is none this girl just really gets on my nerves. If she were to go for a hike in the woods and get lost I don't think I would be able to muster the compassion to go find her.
This girl thinks shes the only one in the god dam world who has been kicked by life or something... news flash sweetheart ...EVERYONE has.
Point in case ... That's why I am here at Karin's place, to get away from shit. So now instead of getting over shit I'm sitting here babysitting a 21 yr old who whines worse that a 2 year old. And did I mention the temper tantrums and fits??? Yeah she has those too.
On the plus side... well there is none this girl just really gets on my nerves. If she were to go for a hike in the woods and get lost I don't think I would be able to muster the compassion to go find her.
Tuesday, January 27, 2009
today sucked ..thanks alot Karin
yeah so today I woke up at 8:15 that wasnt a huge problem or anything but i had to pee sooooo bad and as usual Karins house has no TP .... like WTF?!?!?!?!?!??!?!??!?!?!?!??!??!?!!?!??!??!?!??!?!?!?!??!?!??!?!??!?!?!??!?!? anyway yeah I went out to get some TP and peed somewhere along the way spent a while on the phone filing for unemployment (so not happy about that) then went out again to just drive basically...
Got back and woke up Satan (sarah) she went to the bathroom for like 10 min I thought she got sucked in by the toilet or something but no she comes out and looks plenty relieved... I'm a bit conerned b.c I know for a fact there is no TP in there and the stuff I just bought is on the counter so I asked her how she wiped up and she goes oh I just wiggled myself dry (OK yeah thats nasty) a bit later Karin and John woke up at which point Karin decided she wanted me to go to Big Tits (Dunkin Donuts) and get her some breakfast so she told me to take Sarah with me and not tell her it was Dunkin Donuts until we got there and of course me being the bitch I am I did it. Totally fucked with her head for the whole ride. On the way back she asked me to pick her up some cigarrettes so I was like sure and told Satan we were picking up some
"pussies" (yes I used the deplorable word) I told her that once she sees where we are going she is going to want to suck on pussy all day long. Sure enough when we got to the tabacco shop she was like I have a pack at home so she was well prepared to suck on some pussy already. Oh and that store is fucking dumb as shit b/c they carded me for the cigarettes (Yeah I'm nearly 24 and still being carded for cigs) and then I gave them a credit card with Karins name on it to pay for them the CC said CHECK ID on the back too... so yeah they suck ass. anyway I got back to Karins place and sarah runs in the house screaming like a banchee about how Dunkin Donuts isn't big tits and a tabacco shop isnt a store full of pussies. She then goes into another room crying about how she has double d's which I dont at all get the corelation to dunkin donuts and her bags of saggy fat but whatever. so then we all eat donuts and then I am volunteered to take her to SCC (Scranton Counciling Center) so I drive all the way out there (in silence mostly I loved it) anyway we got there and she went in to see the guy and got an appointment on our way back to the house she was like he told me I need to go to the state building and apply for benfits so I asked her now or another time and she insisted on now ... so we went to the state building and sat around for like 2 hours ... i filled out her welfare application b/c she supposedly cant read an shit .... she demanded to be head of house and not to include John her b.f and I was like are you sure? and she said "he can fill out his own damn thing" (and she told Karin that I never even mentioned the "head of the house hold" to her and told John that I told her to write her as the head of the house hold, and went on to complain about the man being the head of the house hold when she can't even hold a conversation properly let alone a household. talk about being caught in a lie.. does she think we don't talk?) so ok whatever ... she finally gets the interview and comes out saying she is head of house including John ... I decide I want to go to the gun store and force her to come with me obviously she has no choice at all... the thing was closed so we started to go home but we had to stop for bread so we could eat dinner. but this F*cker decides she wants to go to the porn store ... ugh I thought she was fucking around but no she goes in god it was so embarrasing... to be there with her and her loudness. Anyway we left and onward to get bread I stopped at Aldis and shes like dont shop her someones going to steal your car!!! and I was like for a minute no they wont I'll lock the car so i go in and she's like outside saying how she needs to smoke so whatever i come out and shes about to get in my car with a cig and I was like dont or I'll snap your neck off... lol yeah im so unnessarily mean to this girl.... anyway we got back to the house and I for whatever reason decided to pull up in reverse so i did and she was cracking up ... it wasnt the most amazing thing in the world but yeah and here I am now typing this out ... hope you were amused ... till next time I guess
Got back and woke up Satan (sarah) she went to the bathroom for like 10 min I thought she got sucked in by the toilet or something but no she comes out and looks plenty relieved... I'm a bit conerned b.c I know for a fact there is no TP in there and the stuff I just bought is on the counter so I asked her how she wiped up and she goes oh I just wiggled myself dry (OK yeah thats nasty) a bit later Karin and John woke up at which point Karin decided she wanted me to go to Big Tits (Dunkin Donuts) and get her some breakfast so she told me to take Sarah with me and not tell her it was Dunkin Donuts until we got there and of course me being the bitch I am I did it. Totally fucked with her head for the whole ride. On the way back she asked me to pick her up some cigarrettes so I was like sure and told Satan we were picking up some
"pussies" (yes I used the deplorable word) I told her that once she sees where we are going she is going to want to suck on pussy all day long. Sure enough when we got to the tabacco shop she was like I have a pack at home so she was well prepared to suck on some pussy already. Oh and that store is fucking dumb as shit b/c they carded me for the cigarettes (Yeah I'm nearly 24 and still being carded for cigs) and then I gave them a credit card with Karins name on it to pay for them the CC said CHECK ID on the back too... so yeah they suck ass. anyway I got back to Karins place and sarah runs in the house screaming like a banchee about how Dunkin Donuts isn't big tits and a tabacco shop isnt a store full of pussies. She then goes into another room crying about how she has double d's which I dont at all get the corelation to dunkin donuts and her bags of saggy fat but whatever. so then we all eat donuts and then I am volunteered to take her to SCC (Scranton Counciling Center) so I drive all the way out there (in silence mostly I loved it) anyway we got there and she went in to see the guy and got an appointment on our way back to the house she was like he told me I need to go to the state building and apply for benfits so I asked her now or another time and she insisted on now ... so we went to the state building and sat around for like 2 hours ... i filled out her welfare application b/c she supposedly cant read an shit .... she demanded to be head of house and not to include John her b.f and I was like are you sure? and she said "he can fill out his own damn thing" (and she told Karin that I never even mentioned the "head of the house hold" to her and told John that I told her to write her as the head of the house hold, and went on to complain about the man being the head of the house hold when she can't even hold a conversation properly let alone a household. talk about being caught in a lie.. does she think we don't talk?) so ok whatever ... she finally gets the interview and comes out saying she is head of house including John ... I decide I want to go to the gun store and force her to come with me obviously she has no choice at all... the thing was closed so we started to go home but we had to stop for bread so we could eat dinner. but this F*cker decides she wants to go to the porn store ... ugh I thought she was fucking around but no she goes in god it was so embarrasing... to be there with her and her loudness. Anyway we left and onward to get bread I stopped at Aldis and shes like dont shop her someones going to steal your car!!! and I was like for a minute no they wont I'll lock the car so i go in and she's like outside saying how she needs to smoke so whatever i come out and shes about to get in my car with a cig and I was like dont or I'll snap your neck off... lol yeah im so unnessarily mean to this girl.... anyway we got back to the house and I for whatever reason decided to pull up in reverse so i did and she was cracking up ... it wasnt the most amazing thing in the world but yeah and here I am now typing this out ... hope you were amused ... till next time I guess
Monday, January 26, 2009
yeah so (this is long)
Sorry but I am not so consumed by you that my life relies on your call. If I want to do something its my life let me make the mistake and learn something.
So last night I blew up at my mother b/c she was 'scared' about medoingmy cross country trip quite possibly the highlight of my young life. No its ALL about her as ALWAYS! I am so sick of being treated like a 10 yr old. If I want to do something and I am not relying on you for it then mind your business. I understand you think I am going to go out on my own and make a life for myself without you butyeah thast called growing up! I hope you didnt thinkI was going to spend the rest of my life living with you and giving you a day by day briefing of my happenings b.c yeah no not happening.
So in order to get out of the house I drove to Karins place and here I am been here all day really in the mood for pancakes. There are these 2 ppl living with her the guy John is really awesome but the girl Sarah is like insane she needs to be put back on her meds. And we were watching the pilot episode of 'The L Word" and she kept repositioning herselfcloser and closer and I was just thinking stop doing that or I'm going to knock you out don't touch me like at all! wow I'm so mean ... but shes in her room crying over the fact that reality just sucker punched her in the face. We went to th store earlier today and on the way back I told her I had no lisence and I've been in so many fnder benders I'm suprised my car has no dents on it... she got freaked out lol. I kept messing with her ALL day it was fun I think my favorite was when I had her cell phone and made her jump up to get it and when she refused to do it after the 3rd time I told her to do something cool for it so she tried a whole bunch of diffrent thingsto get it back it was funny as hell in the end I was liek forget it just jump up oe more time and grab it ad gave it to her... it was funnier than I am sure t sounds (like I'm a bitch...aaagghhh not really ...ok maybe sometimes... but not this time) John was luaghing and not helping lol he was actually making it worse for her
Mike is awesome today b/c he fixed my computer and it works so much better and its less noicy :) thanks Mike!
So thats really about that but yeha I'm also prediabetic and have to chek my sugar and all not my favorite thing to do but whatever ... my blood sugar this morning was at 111 which is 'normal' to the average person but to me thats way to high I am normally in the mid 80-s to mid 90's. I took it again about an hour ago nad its down to 97 which is good I feel better and the headache is finally gone.
I decided that I need to lose weight I want to lost like 40 pounds and ge myself down to 160 (yeah I am 200 pounds) I'm sick of being so unhealthy I can barely look at myself in the mirror sometimes ...which is why I dont like mirrors or pictures. so I need everyone to like remind me to go to the gym I lost interest in it around x-mas time for some reason and I really needed a kick in the ass to go back. I think after actually seein myself today I got that kick I needed so I'm going back as soon as I go home 4-6 times per week. Also I think I'm gonna write down wat I eat so I can see what I am doing wrong food wise. today I ate like nothing which is bad I had a yogurt and cottage cheese w/ raspberries thing also 2 eggs w/ some cheese. Obviously I need to have more veggies/fruit and cut back on the dairy. I'm going to go to the store tomorow and get some fruit I shoulda got those grapes earlier ... oh well theres always tomorow.
So last night I blew up at my mother b/c she was 'scared' about medoingmy cross country trip quite possibly the highlight of my young life. No its ALL about her as ALWAYS! I am so sick of being treated like a 10 yr old. If I want to do something and I am not relying on you for it then mind your business. I understand you think I am going to go out on my own and make a life for myself without you butyeah thast called growing up! I hope you didnt thinkI was going to spend the rest of my life living with you and giving you a day by day briefing of my happenings b.c yeah no not happening.
So in order to get out of the house I drove to Karins place and here I am been here all day really in the mood for pancakes. There are these 2 ppl living with her the guy John is really awesome but the girl Sarah is like insane she needs to be put back on her meds. And we were watching the pilot episode of 'The L Word" and she kept repositioning herselfcloser and closer and I was just thinking stop doing that or I'm going to knock you out don't touch me like at all! wow I'm so mean ... but shes in her room crying over the fact that reality just sucker punched her in the face. We went to th store earlier today and on the way back I told her I had no lisence and I've been in so many fnder benders I'm suprised my car has no dents on it... she got freaked out lol. I kept messing with her ALL day it was fun I think my favorite was when I had her cell phone and made her jump up to get it and when she refused to do it after the 3rd time I told her to do something cool for it so she tried a whole bunch of diffrent thingsto get it back it was funny as hell in the end I was liek forget it just jump up oe more time and grab it ad gave it to her... it was funnier than I am sure t sounds (like I'm a bitch...aaagghhh not really ...ok maybe sometimes... but not this time) John was luaghing and not helping lol he was actually making it worse for her
Mike is awesome today b/c he fixed my computer and it works so much better and its less noicy :) thanks Mike!
So thats really about that but yeha I'm also prediabetic and have to chek my sugar and all not my favorite thing to do but whatever ... my blood sugar this morning was at 111 which is 'normal' to the average person but to me thats way to high I am normally in the mid 80-s to mid 90's. I took it again about an hour ago nad its down to 97 which is good I feel better and the headache is finally gone.
I decided that I need to lose weight I want to lost like 40 pounds and ge myself down to 160 (yeah I am 200 pounds) I'm sick of being so unhealthy I can barely look at myself in the mirror sometimes ...which is why I dont like mirrors or pictures. so I need everyone to like remind me to go to the gym I lost interest in it around x-mas time for some reason and I really needed a kick in the ass to go back. I think after actually seein myself today I got that kick I needed so I'm going back as soon as I go home 4-6 times per week. Also I think I'm gonna write down wat I eat so I can see what I am doing wrong food wise. today I ate like nothing which is bad I had a yogurt and cottage cheese w/ raspberries thing also 2 eggs w/ some cheese. Obviously I need to have more veggies/fruit and cut back on the dairy. I'm going to go to the store tomorow and get some fruit I shoulda got those grapes earlier ... oh well theres always tomorow.
Saturday, January 24, 2009
Seriously? Seriously?!?
OK so I know everyone has thier quirks and all but SERIOUSLY?!?!?!?!
OK so back story ... my 'friend' Becky (yes THAT GIRL) was like well you and my friend Caryn will get along great so I agreed to the blind date.
STUPID STUPID STUPID!!!!!!!!!!! and did I mention STUPID? well if not STUPID!!!
Seriously this chick sat around and talked about her medical problems the WHOLE time ..like seriously do you have a life? Oh yeah every once in a while she talked about how much she hated school. oooo and how she had severe nerve ending damage and blah blah blah....AGGGHHHHH shut up!!!!
Ok yeah ummm NO!!!
Why can't I find a semi intersting NORMAL person who has more than 2-3 things to talk about? I mean seriously SERIOUSLY!!!
Oh yeah and today is my grandpas birthday so we took him out to dinner (to Charlie Browns Steak House) so the lady told me 40 minutes. I told that to my parents and we waited ... not a big deal... well apparently it was b.c the place had NO room for people to stand around and wait ad everyone was bumping into everyone else ..it really was a pain in the ass... but so this one guy and his family pushed my step dad one to many times so my stepdad said something to him and the guy was like "If thats you're atitide maybe I shuld get the cops involved" that peaked my interest. so I was like wtf is going on and then they guy goes"what are you going to hit me with a baby in my arms?!?" Trying to challenge my stepdad of course and then my mom steps in and is like "hes not going to hit you but you need to be more considerate" and hes like"What?!? Who are you?" and then they began arguing it was kinda funny in the end the guy walked away huffing and puffy lol ... in between this time my mother askedthe hostest about 23897348524378 times when we would be seated and my stepdad YELLED at them b.c alot of tables were empty and we were waiting for 60 min already after they told us only 40 min. So we finally got seated and the food was yummy and thats the end of that.
OK so back story ... my 'friend' Becky (yes THAT GIRL) was like well you and my friend Caryn will get along great so I agreed to the blind date.
STUPID STUPID STUPID!!!!!!!!!!! and did I mention STUPID? well if not STUPID!!!
Seriously this chick sat around and talked about her medical problems the WHOLE time ..like seriously do you have a life? Oh yeah every once in a while she talked about how much she hated school. oooo and how she had severe nerve ending damage and blah blah blah....AGGGHHHHH shut up!!!!
Ok yeah ummm NO!!!
Why can't I find a semi intersting NORMAL person who has more than 2-3 things to talk about? I mean seriously SERIOUSLY!!!
Oh yeah and today is my grandpas birthday so we took him out to dinner (to Charlie Browns Steak House) so the lady told me 40 minutes. I told that to my parents and we waited ... not a big deal... well apparently it was b.c the place had NO room for people to stand around and wait ad everyone was bumping into everyone else ..it really was a pain in the ass... but so this one guy and his family pushed my step dad one to many times so my stepdad said something to him and the guy was like "If thats you're atitide maybe I shuld get the cops involved" that peaked my interest. so I was like wtf is going on and then they guy goes"what are you going to hit me with a baby in my arms?!?" Trying to challenge my stepdad of course and then my mom steps in and is like "hes not going to hit you but you need to be more considerate" and hes like"What?!? Who are you?" and then they began arguing it was kinda funny in the end the guy walked away huffing and puffy lol ... in between this time my mother askedthe hostest about 23897348524378 times when we would be seated and my stepdad YELLED at them b.c alot of tables were empty and we were waiting for 60 min already after they told us only 40 min. So we finally got seated and the food was yummy and thats the end of that.
Friday, January 23, 2009
everything
is much better... still kinda depressedabout god knows what and I just want to go up north and away from this woman ...
So I am def taking the trip across country I already planned it out my itinerary is
Fairless Hills, PA
Moscow,Pa
Fairless Hills, PA
Mechanicsburg, PA
Nashville, TN
New Orleans, LA
Albequorqie, NM
Tuscan, AZ
Tustin, CA
Las Vegas, NV
Grand Canyon, AZ
Denver, CO
McHentry, IL/Chicago, IL
*maybe Mechanicsburg again
Fairless Hills, PA
and anything in between that peeks my interest
I have 3 months to do this so I'm excited about it ... I also wanted to go to South Dakota but that is def waaay out of the way
I've been telling my mom about it and all ans she called me up yesterday crying how she was going to miss me and this and that and I cant leave her alone LMAO! Just another one of her famous guilt trips is all that is ....
Today is my LAST day of work for the next 3 months (wont be going back unless they call me back to work ...I hope they do I like my job) ... Last night this woman was asking another woman I worked with if she wanted to go out to pizzafor dinner apparently her and Tusli are takingme out but they forgot to tell me lol ... but thats cool im game for going to get some pizza rather than sitting up in the lab for 8.5 hours.
SO last ngiht I got eally pissed at this one person I work with Latoya... she ALWAYS jumps into my conversations and starts an argument with me over something b/c she doesnt agree with my political views so instead of lettingme explain myself she'll listen to aboutwhen I open my mouth adn make the first sound then start screaming about he point... I really really want to knock her out and then I picked up Tulsi GE vocab flash cards thing and she was like youre invading her privacy and I was like legally no im not she left them in a public place in a public area she had NO expectationtion to privacy and then shes like well you leave your car in a public parkinglot can I go in it and drive away and I was like no I have an expectation to privacy thast whyI locked it up and shes like well ill beak the window and I was like so thast commitingmany offenses all at once and shes like no you left it outside andone could take it I tried to explain that that was absurd and she wasnt having it she just yelled somemore and made me want to punch her in the nose/rip out her hair. oh well I wont be seeing her for 3 months and yeah so thats just wonderful... Althou I will miss Alton :( who also wont be in tomorow that guy is awesome! who else will I miss.... prolly just about everyone boooo ... o well I get to drive cross country what could be more awesome than that???
And so what else???lets see according to Brooke I can't be a lesian until I watch at lease one episode of "The L Word" right nw I am onl asexual ... so I can only do it with myself ... hmm well thats not to bad I guess altho I would rather have someone to have fun with... but thats ok this sunday I am goin over to her place to watch the first season or at least pretend to watch ...and right now we are having a conversation about going o work naked ... she suggested that I say the wind blew off my clothes but I countered with the fact that if they were ON me they would blow off and she was like ok you got muggedand that would work only if I was in the car by myself but since i drive with another person they would also have gotten mugged ... so she suggested the other woman stole my clothes and thts why im naked ... I thought about it for a ho second but then opted against going to work naked ... ya know
Oh and everyday for the next 4 yrs am going to wear at lease one piece of black clothing to show my mourning for America ..I suggest more people do it as a silent protst to this illegal alien president who still hasnt shown his proof of citizenship (long version with the doctors name hospital etc)
I think thats alls that been going on with me recently I know i mised a bunch of stuff like who the hell is brooke right??? hah well I'll keep you posted not suree myself altho she fucking rocks
So I am def taking the trip across country I already planned it out my itinerary is
Fairless Hills, PA
Moscow,Pa
Fairless Hills, PA
Mechanicsburg, PA
Nashville, TN
New Orleans, LA
Albequorqie, NM
Tuscan, AZ
Tustin, CA
Las Vegas, NV
Grand Canyon, AZ
Denver, CO
McHentry, IL/Chicago, IL
*maybe Mechanicsburg again
Fairless Hills, PA
and anything in between that peeks my interest
I have 3 months to do this so I'm excited about it ... I also wanted to go to South Dakota but that is def waaay out of the way
I've been telling my mom about it and all ans she called me up yesterday crying how she was going to miss me and this and that and I cant leave her alone LMAO! Just another one of her famous guilt trips is all that is ....
Today is my LAST day of work for the next 3 months (wont be going back unless they call me back to work ...I hope they do I like my job) ... Last night this woman was asking another woman I worked with if she wanted to go out to pizzafor dinner apparently her and Tusli are takingme out but they forgot to tell me lol ... but thats cool im game for going to get some pizza rather than sitting up in the lab for 8.5 hours.
SO last ngiht I got eally pissed at this one person I work with Latoya... she ALWAYS jumps into my conversations and starts an argument with me over something b/c she doesnt agree with my political views so instead of lettingme explain myself she'll listen to aboutwhen I open my mouth adn make the first sound then start screaming about he point... I really really want to knock her out and then I picked up Tulsi GE vocab flash cards thing and she was like youre invading her privacy and I was like legally no im not she left them in a public place in a public area she had NO expectationtion to privacy and then shes like well you leave your car in a public parkinglot can I go in it and drive away and I was like no I have an expectation to privacy thast whyI locked it up and shes like well ill beak the window and I was like so thast commitingmany offenses all at once and shes like no you left it outside andone could take it I tried to explain that that was absurd and she wasnt having it she just yelled somemore and made me want to punch her in the nose/rip out her hair. oh well I wont be seeing her for 3 months and yeah so thats just wonderful... Althou I will miss Alton :( who also wont be in tomorow that guy is awesome! who else will I miss.... prolly just about everyone boooo ... o well I get to drive cross country what could be more awesome than that???
And so what else???lets see according to Brooke I can't be a lesian until I watch at lease one episode of "The L Word" right nw I am onl asexual ... so I can only do it with myself ... hmm well thats not to bad I guess altho I would rather have someone to have fun with... but thats ok this sunday I am goin over to her place to watch the first season or at least pretend to watch ...and right now we are having a conversation about going o work naked ... she suggested that I say the wind blew off my clothes but I countered with the fact that if they were ON me they would blow off and she was like ok you got muggedand that would work only if I was in the car by myself but since i drive with another person they would also have gotten mugged ... so she suggested the other woman stole my clothes and thts why im naked ... I thought about it for a ho second but then opted against going to work naked ... ya know
Oh and everyday for the next 4 yrs am going to wear at lease one piece of black clothing to show my mourning for America ..I suggest more people do it as a silent protst to this illegal alien president who still hasnt shown his proof of citizenship (long version with the doctors name hospital etc)
I think thats alls that been going on with me recently I know i mised a bunch of stuff like who the hell is brooke right??? hah well I'll keep you posted not suree myself altho she fucking rocks
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
WOW
Yeah when youre getting a test done ata hpspital and the technician goes WOW! and bulges her eyes out thats not a good sign... glad i went toget that test done...I feel so good now ...... NOT
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
Get off of my back
Nicole quit talking to me go jump off a bridge or something
People in general need to stop existing around me
I'm going into isolation and I don't want to talk to anyone for a few days
Seriously just don't
I'm about to explode inside myself so I can't be near anyone
I hate life at the moment it is full of disappointments
Just get off my back everyone!
People in general need to stop existing around me
I'm going into isolation and I don't want to talk to anyone for a few days
Seriously just don't
I'm about to explode inside myself so I can't be near anyone
I hate life at the moment it is full of disappointments
Just get off my back everyone!
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
DWY
This is a new traffic offense that allows the police to hold you captive for 30 min.
It is called 'Driving While Young'
Yes I was pulled over today by the police for no reason other than pure harrasment.
He wanted to see my drivers licence b/c he said I looked like I should be in HS. I gave it to him and he said that it was a fake or stolen.
He proceded to call the local schools (for 20 min!!!) finally figureed out I wasn't 17 or whatever and then let me go but not before he told me to carry around 2 forms of ID and if I wanted to avoid being pulled over again not to drive during school hours. To which I have to say I am almsot 24 yrs old I'll drive whenever I f*cking want to thank you very much!!!!!!!!
Also the day wasnt complete I went to get my dog her licence and the woman was like are you at least 18? and I was like yeah im 23 and she was like do you have ID I showed her and it was acceptable ... WTF stop IDing me I don't look like I'm 16!!!!!!!!!
It is called 'Driving While Young'
Yes I was pulled over today by the police for no reason other than pure harrasment.
He wanted to see my drivers licence b/c he said I looked like I should be in HS. I gave it to him and he said that it was a fake or stolen.
He proceded to call the local schools (for 20 min!!!) finally figureed out I wasn't 17 or whatever and then let me go but not before he told me to carry around 2 forms of ID and if I wanted to avoid being pulled over again not to drive during school hours. To which I have to say I am almsot 24 yrs old I'll drive whenever I f*cking want to thank you very much!!!!!!!!
Also the day wasnt complete I went to get my dog her licence and the woman was like are you at least 18? and I was like yeah im 23 and she was like do you have ID I showed her and it was acceptable ... WTF stop IDing me I don't look like I'm 16!!!!!!!!!
Monday, January 12, 2009
An adventourous day
So today was a bit interesting it was filled with gay guys, bad movies, pet store flirting adn um well just read .........
So I woke up at 1115 earlier than normal ... so I got up went to the aweful gym and then ran home to shwer cause I had to meet my mom for lunch..... the waitress was a total blow hole!!!!! she gave us an aditude and took my order wrong.......which wasnt that hard buffulo chicken strips with NO blue cheese .... andmy moms burger was burned ad the roll was hard..not the waitresses fault but when she is told and oe to get a new one should just replace the top bun and hand it back nor should she be a total snot when taking the order in the first place.... ok so anyway after I left I went to the post office where I saw this girl i used to work with and she was all like HIII and being all oddish about stuff and the way she was talking in general about it and kinda scared me I thnk she got crazier as time has gone by. ....any way I left and went to see my friend Linda who just got home from GTMO but is leaving soon for Italy... lucky bitch!!! anyway we went to the penn dot phot center where Linda got her new liscnese the guy was super duper gay ppl were asking him questions he answered and the asked again after they left he made fun of them... lol professional... he goes to me and is like "go gettem girlfriend" it was funny to when he asked Linda her MOS and she was like ugh what and I as like your job ..lol i know military lingo beter than the girl IN the military... anyway we came back to my house to do some stuff ... non sexual of course... then we decided to see a movie ...but first we stopped to go to the Army recruitment center..who wont take me b/c im fat ...assholes!!! and the guy called Linda a quid for being in the Navy lol ... ok so onward to the move we saw the curious case of benjamin button .... it was boring and long i dont recomend it. after we left I needed to stop at the pet store to get some filters for my frogs tank so we of course stopped by the puppies to pet them sooo cute they had a s bernard and an alskan mallemute and an australlian shepard that had no tail so that made it suck the cashier was an asshole we aked him a questio and he pointed out tht he hates politics and we were like we asked you about diog treats??? ugh what ... and linda got hit on my the pet store guy which was funny cause she told me to help her so I pretended she was my g.f and scared himwe plan on doing that at a bar tomorow night too lol ... anyway then we went to dinner and weended up at an A&W we got rootbeer floats whuch were awesome! while there we played oldies from the jukebox and danced around .. it was fun :)
So I woke up at 1115 earlier than normal ... so I got up went to the aweful gym and then ran home to shwer cause I had to meet my mom for lunch..... the waitress was a total blow hole!!!!! she gave us an aditude and took my order wrong.......which wasnt that hard buffulo chicken strips with NO blue cheese .... andmy moms burger was burned ad the roll was hard..not the waitresses fault but when she is told and oe to get a new one should just replace the top bun and hand it back nor should she be a total snot when taking the order in the first place.... ok so anyway after I left I went to the post office where I saw this girl i used to work with and she was all like HIII and being all oddish about stuff and the way she was talking in general about it and kinda scared me I thnk she got crazier as time has gone by. ....any way I left and went to see my friend Linda who just got home from GTMO but is leaving soon for Italy... lucky bitch!!! anyway we went to the penn dot phot center where Linda got her new liscnese the guy was super duper gay ppl were asking him questions he answered and the asked again after they left he made fun of them... lol professional... he goes to me and is like "go gettem girlfriend" it was funny to when he asked Linda her MOS and she was like ugh what and I as like your job ..lol i know military lingo beter than the girl IN the military... anyway we came back to my house to do some stuff ... non sexual of course... then we decided to see a movie ...but first we stopped to go to the Army recruitment center..who wont take me b/c im fat ...assholes!!! and the guy called Linda a quid for being in the Navy lol ... ok so onward to the move we saw the curious case of benjamin button .... it was boring and long i dont recomend it. after we left I needed to stop at the pet store to get some filters for my frogs tank so we of course stopped by the puppies to pet them sooo cute they had a s bernard and an alskan mallemute and an australlian shepard that had no tail so that made it suck the cashier was an asshole we aked him a questio and he pointed out tht he hates politics and we were like we asked you about diog treats??? ugh what ... and linda got hit on my the pet store guy which was funny cause she told me to help her so I pretended she was my g.f and scared himwe plan on doing that at a bar tomorow night too lol ... anyway then we went to dinner and weended up at an A&W we got rootbeer floats whuch were awesome! while there we played oldies from the jukebox and danced around .. it was fun :)
57.22
I spent 57.22 on dog and cat treats ... like seriously thats ALOT!!!
I also learned that if you throw hard candy into a soda it bubbles and fizzes adn taste waaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy better
I also learned that if you throw hard candy into a soda it bubbles and fizzes adn taste waaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy better
Saturday, January 10, 2009
GAWD Lay shut the FUCK up!
So as you all know my job is currently in serious jepordy of being laid off... well everyones at the place I work is NO ONE is safe. Everyone talks about it all day everyday like there is nothing else in the world to talk about but the MOST annoying thing
Is that I car pool with this older woman Vilas the whole car ride to and from work she talks about it and says the same shit over and over and over and over and did I mention OVER again. God its fucking annoying
I understand yourstressed out we ALL are but THERE IS NOTHING YOU CAN DO TO FIX THE SITUATION YOUR JUST STRESSING YOURSELF OUT BY BITCHING AND BRINGING IT UP AL DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and that is the end of my take of the lady who wont shutthe fuck up
on the up side I bought a receiver for an AR-15 and its going to look fucking HAWT
Is that I car pool with this older woman Vilas the whole car ride to and from work she talks about it and says the same shit over and over and over and over and did I mention OVER again. God its fucking annoying
I understand yourstressed out we ALL are but THERE IS NOTHING YOU CAN DO TO FIX THE SITUATION YOUR JUST STRESSING YOURSELF OUT BY BITCHING AND BRINGING IT UP AL DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and that is the end of my take of the lady who wont shutthe fuck up
on the up side I bought a receiver for an AR-15 and its going to look fucking HAWT
Tuesday, January 6, 2009
California???
I was thinking I might move to CA if I lost my job
Yeah I know I'm a conservative gun loving red neck and the laws out there are anti-liberty but its nicer tha over here... and yeha
thoughts?
Yeah I know I'm a conservative gun loving red neck and the laws out there are anti-liberty but its nicer tha over here... and yeha
thoughts?
Monday, January 5, 2009
Sheesh!!! What do you think you're going?
So I went to the gun range today to shoot a bit
I fired off an easy 400 rounds of ammo between what I taken to go shooting with. (2 hours)
So while I was there I decided to get a drink of water I left the bay and in the lobby was this girl wearing tight jeans fuzzy heeled boots (the kind that come up to just about your knees) a tight black shirt and a just as tight sweater thing ... not shooting range attire.
I have to admit she had a hot body but beyond that she was a moron.
In other recent events ... my mom is making dinner and goes can you help me? so I do and then shes like your doing it wrong you're doing it wrong ... listen woman if you want help let em do it otherwise do it yourself!
I fired off an easy 400 rounds of ammo between what I taken to go shooting with. (2 hours)
So while I was there I decided to get a drink of water I left the bay and in the lobby was this girl wearing tight jeans fuzzy heeled boots (the kind that come up to just about your knees) a tight black shirt and a just as tight sweater thing ... not shooting range attire.
I have to admit she had a hot body but beyond that she was a moron.
In other recent events ... my mom is making dinner and goes can you help me? so I do and then shes like your doing it wrong you're doing it wrong ... listen woman if you want help let em do it otherwise do it yourself!
Descriptive
So my friend Zoe asked me to descibe myself using only 5 words
I didn't know what to say
What 5 words would you use to describe yourself?
I didn't know what to say
What 5 words would you use to describe yourself?
Saturday, January 3, 2009
Rub a Dub Tub
So I took a bath last night... I know I bet your all excited to hear it
I was kinda disappointed in the whole bath experience.
Alls I wanted to do was read my book in the hot water. Utter and total relaxation I thought. Well it wasnt ... my glasses kept fogging up and I couldnt read very well GRRRRR!!! so my relaxation time was sucky!
And to make it worse I weighed myself prebath adn i was one weight and then when I got out completly dripping wet I weight 2 pounds less... so WTF!! My scale sucks balls!
I was kinda disappointed in the whole bath experience.
Alls I wanted to do was read my book in the hot water. Utter and total relaxation I thought. Well it wasnt ... my glasses kept fogging up and I couldnt read very well GRRRRR!!! so my relaxation time was sucky!
And to make it worse I weighed myself prebath adn i was one weight and then when I got out completly dripping wet I weight 2 pounds less... so WTF!! My scale sucks balls!
Friday, January 2, 2009
Love is like Big Foot
IT DOESNT EXIST
People talk about it but it just doesnt exist. All ppl are doing when they talk about it is keep up the hope of its existence.
Who has ever really seen or felt love?
What you felt was probably some rush of chemicals in the brain that told you to reproduce or something similar. I need to believe it is more than just a rush of chemicals in the brain. That there really is in fact something to look forward too.
Love is supposed to be the pinnacle of our existence but it seems as if the more time goes by the less likely it is to happen
What is the catalyst? And why is it so hard to find?
Love cannot exist b/c if it did there wouldnt be so much hate and anger in this world. Therefore there is no catalyst and you can't find it b/c it isn't real.
People talk about it but it just doesnt exist. All ppl are doing when they talk about it is keep up the hope of its existence.
Who has ever really seen or felt love?
What you felt was probably some rush of chemicals in the brain that told you to reproduce or something similar. I need to believe it is more than just a rush of chemicals in the brain. That there really is in fact something to look forward too.
Love is supposed to be the pinnacle of our existence but it seems as if the more time goes by the less likely it is to happen
What is the catalyst? And why is it so hard to find?
Love cannot exist b/c if it did there wouldnt be so much hate and anger in this world. Therefore there is no catalyst and you can't find it b/c it isn't real.
Thursday, January 1, 2009
New years
yeah its a new year woopie do da.... ummmm yeah
so i woke up today around 12:45 sore as shit (my abs butt thighs and calfs) adn thne i remembered i ran 3 miles for no reason UP HILL..what was I thinking??? no idea but the alcohol musta been good
so I went to my friends NYE party ... It was good times I finally was able to kick butt at Jenga and this guy totally kept knocking over the tower he was horrible... we played some word game where ppl have to guess what word youre thinking of without using te clue words and no gesturing... I kicked arse at this game aswell ... my team always got what I was saying and I was able to get what they were saying ... except Colleen who just sucked at the game entirely and i wa abut to throw her on the penis team jsut for sucking so bad adn she couldnt helped them catch up. teams were penis v vagina .... the Vagina team won by a landslide victory of 32-17. then we watched some jeff dunham comedy skits and drank and ate food (seperatly the drinks were liquid the food was solid)... oooo so the one guy that was came over I knew him and I was at his NYE party 3 yrs earlier where I got so drunk he crried me home hehe it was fun reminising with him and apparently I had sex with someone a that party and missed the girl striping (DAM!!)
thats all really i have a head ache and am still dizzy (hasnt gone away since I went to see Karin actually) my blood sufar is reading 83 which is low so im confused ... maybe my thing is broken? or mybe my head is I dunno...im gonna go prep dinner then go to the gym and make myself more sore ... I ran at 7.0 for fun for 5 min the other day on the tread mill and my lungs were about to explode .. i spnt to much time slacking and not goingt othe gym I have to work myself back up bllaaahh h
oh yeah and new years resoluions ...
well I havnt really thought about it
but for the new year I dont really resolve to do anything special just enjoy life and friends and family (if possble) ..ill come abck with resolutions if I can think of any
f-30
peace out bitches and homies
so i woke up today around 12:45 sore as shit (my abs butt thighs and calfs) adn thne i remembered i ran 3 miles for no reason UP HILL..what was I thinking??? no idea but the alcohol musta been good
so I went to my friends NYE party ... It was good times I finally was able to kick butt at Jenga and this guy totally kept knocking over the tower he was horrible... we played some word game where ppl have to guess what word youre thinking of without using te clue words and no gesturing... I kicked arse at this game aswell ... my team always got what I was saying and I was able to get what they were saying ... except Colleen who just sucked at the game entirely and i wa abut to throw her on the penis team jsut for sucking so bad adn she couldnt helped them catch up. teams were penis v vagina .... the Vagina team won by a landslide victory of 32-17. then we watched some jeff dunham comedy skits and drank and ate food (seperatly the drinks were liquid the food was solid)... oooo so the one guy that was came over I knew him and I was at his NYE party 3 yrs earlier where I got so drunk he crried me home hehe it was fun reminising with him and apparently I had sex with someone a that party and missed the girl striping (DAM!!)
thats all really i have a head ache and am still dizzy (hasnt gone away since I went to see Karin actually) my blood sufar is reading 83 which is low so im confused ... maybe my thing is broken? or mybe my head is I dunno...im gonna go prep dinner then go to the gym and make myself more sore ... I ran at 7.0 for fun for 5 min the other day on the tread mill and my lungs were about to explode .. i spnt to much time slacking and not goingt othe gym I have to work myself back up bllaaahh h
oh yeah and new years resoluions ...
well I havnt really thought about it
but for the new year I dont really resolve to do anything special just enjoy life and friends and family (if possble) ..ill come abck with resolutions if I can think of any
f-30
peace out bitches and homies
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